Thursday, June 08, 2006
it's so fucking annoying man. That's why i absolutely hate asking my parents permission to go out. It always start something like this :
me : Mom, can i go out with my friends celebrate tomorrow?
Mom :(raised voice) why? why do you need to go out? you can celebrate in bubu
me : no we just wanna celebrate the end of exams
mom : (getting higher) did you do the things i asked you to do? did you apply for accomodation? then no. if you did the things i asked you to do then you would have gone.
me : yes i did try. but i can't apply for it online
mom : no no, you should have gone to maybecs ask them to help you. how are you coming back?
me : well, i'll take the train home the next morning
mom : last time you didn't want to take the train now you want just because you want to do out with your friends?
me : that was because i had books and clothes to bring back
mom: well no deal .if you had done the things i asked you to do then i would let you go.
i am suffocating with her irrationalitites. i'd rather she just say no and be done with. I can take that.
without fail there's always something wrong with me. Being rude, not cleaning my room. which ALWAYS results in some stupid full blown argument about my shortcomings.
It's sooo much better to just lie and tell them i'm going somewhere to study. yes i know it's sad, but wut to do...make love not peace =D which is why i delay asking for anything till the freaking day before since if i do get permission the week before, it's be hanging on my head. do this of you can't go out, or if you did something wrong, you can't go out anymore.
but in the end i almost always go but the mental anguish/high blood pressure's gonna kill me.
anyways, i just realised what my hols will consist of. i think this should be my schedule..:
6.30 am : wake up fetch my bro to school
3.30 pm : fetch mom back home/ go fetch my bro hom
5.30 pm : fetch mom clinic
OMFG...like i don't think i can even freaking go out during the weekdays, other than lunch and maybe a movie squeezed in.
haha i've been really distracted lately, maybe my mind's preoccupied with the world cup. i end up doing stupid things like marking the wrong exam paper. ohhh...there was this time when i was a paperspoint checking for the econs objective answer, but somehow i ended up staring at maths paper 3 for a while.
me : Mom, can i go out with my friends celebrate tomorrow?
Mom :(raised voice) why? why do you need to go out? you can celebrate in bubu
me : no we just wanna celebrate the end of exams
mom : (getting higher) did you do the things i asked you to do? did you apply for accomodation? then no. if you did the things i asked you to do then you would have gone.
me : yes i did try. but i can't apply for it online
mom : no no, you should have gone to maybecs ask them to help you. how are you coming back?
me : well, i'll take the train home the next morning
mom : last time you didn't want to take the train now you want just because you want to do out with your friends?
me : that was because i had books and clothes to bring back
mom: well no deal .if you had done the things i asked you to do then i would let you go.
i am suffocating with her irrationalitites. i'd rather she just say no and be done with. I can take that.
without fail there's always something wrong with me. Being rude, not cleaning my room. which ALWAYS results in some stupid full blown argument about my shortcomings.
It's sooo much better to just lie and tell them i'm going somewhere to study. yes i know it's sad, but wut to do...make love not peace =D which is why i delay asking for anything till the freaking day before since if i do get permission the week before, it's be hanging on my head. do this of you can't go out, or if you did something wrong, you can't go out anymore.
but in the end i almost always go but the mental anguish/high blood pressure's gonna kill me.
anyways, i just realised what my hols will consist of. i think this should be my schedule..:
6.30 am : wake up fetch my bro to school
3.30 pm : fetch mom back home/ go fetch my bro hom
5.30 pm : fetch mom clinic
OMFG...like i don't think i can even freaking go out during the weekdays, other than lunch and maybe a movie squeezed in.
haha i've been really distracted lately, maybe my mind's preoccupied with the world cup. i end up doing stupid things like marking the wrong exam paper. ohhh...there was this time when i was a paperspoint checking for the econs objective answer, but somehow i ended up staring at maths paper 3 for a while.
# posted by Addie @ 10:55 PM 
