Whoa !

Oh my god i'm feeling so de happy now i finally figured how to do links and pics. Thanks kien ! Muacks. Since I'm feeling real nostalgic now, I've posted all the pics of all my buddy buddies which i lurve....Nyek..











Note the spaced out look.Pissed drunk.. I blame kien seng. wakakaka..independence day 2005








This was taken AGES ago when i tot jin was you know (look at her face) innocent and sweet :P






Dug this pic out from the abyss of my com. No change from jess, still the tough chick(albeit mellower) nyek..wut happened to that blue jacket?










Ohhh...I really LOVE this pic. The only group photo we have. Wakaka, I look pretty kewt too..





our um...second last day of camp. haha so we tried to do something ala dawson's creek..:P

YEAH !!!I finished the tort of negligence !!!!
Sob like half or tort done !!!

just testing

i need to be ambidexterous. My hands palms or fingers are killing me now I've got this huge boil on my hand(is that what you call it?) Since i've got this misguided notion that copying stuff makes stuff stick in your head better (it's an excellent way to past time though). So far it isn't going as fast as i anticipated. Should i change my study strategy? Augh !!! Bad this is bad...

Went to taylor's today to renew muh library books. After a record three straight overdue books it's damn disgraceful. Met mei juin and chris at college and we ended up going to 1u. I really cannot take going to 1u all the time! It's just damn depressing. I witnessed like 3 accidents on the way there. It's like god's trying to tell me something. Wakakaa.. Anyways, the reason we choose 1u, i hate to admit it but that blardy place has better food choice than mid valley. nyek, since mj wanted to eat spicy food we went to just thai. The prices were reasonable, like 14 bucks for 3 people. Ohh.....i've got my eye on vietnamese kitchen now. Any takers?
We kinda just wandered around 1u. No shopping tho. Just serious wandering... Then the weirdest thing happened. I saw jin's mom .Chris and mj's never met her before but they like totally knew whose mom that was. wakaka...i mean the incredible likeness( never noticed it before).Wakaka...guess that's how she'll look like 30 years from now.

Ay, how simple things can be so complicated.
1. I need to go out with mj and the gang tomorow.
2. Don't know what i did but i end up planning everything.
3. Chris doesn't know anything( wants to go to sunway) and is free after 12. sophia can go to mid valley after 2.30. and mj i don't know what's going on with her.
haha...and you know how good i am at organizing stuff.
Speaking of that, jess was in a disorientated/flaky/suicidal/temporary queen of blurness today. Seriously she almost gave me a heart attack. Walking in front of speeding cars and the turning back half way, tripping on stairs and singing nursery rhymes the whole way through(cookabera sits on the old gum tree kinda songs),,...wakaka...it wuz lyke takin care of some 5 year old kid. But it was prety farn lar....siau ppl...i'm surrrounded by them

I am exhausted. I want to sleep. But I can't cos i've got to stardie too. Yeah, so we went to celebrate kat's birthday today. I kinda expected to go home early(okay i was hoping to go home early). Red box was a really trying experience. I mean with 12 people in the room you'd expect more HAPPENIN things to happen, but somehow there wasn't no click click. June was trying her best to make things less awkward( yes no one realise cos she was doing a great job). So I kinda took pity on her, sometimes, and we proceeded to make fool of courselves. Why? isn't it obivious. So why do i continue to make nice and be polite even if i wanted to get OUTTA there and AWAY.
Let me tell you a story, there was this girl i knew in form two who like everyONE had a problem with, but was incredibly NICE. I mean she would do stuff for you. And she was totally there for me when I was having my own problems and those crying in the toilet episodes plus staying in her house when i was visiting aussie.. Nyek, but then I don't know why i couldn't stand stand her( maybe it was cos of the constant i'm very fat comments when she's practically a size freakin 0) . Since she was an artsy type she did this fantastic job for her history project. She's one of those over achievers that do like 100 pages worth of history notes. When they returned it to us, some of my classmates took it, tore it, and threw it on the floor and started stamping on it. yeah, and what am i most ashamed of you ask, i was gutless and i didn't say anything but the worst part is this irrational hate i felt even when she was one of the nicest person i knew.
And i did really stupid things to her ( accidently shooting her in the eye with a bb gun).
I do have regrets. There are times when i feel like writing her a letter and apologizing. But...let bygones be bygones right?
So from then on...go figure. I swore i WOULD not subject any person to my irrationalities. Treat people as people you know.

I lied. I think i'm gonna change my major !!! I feel the economist in me bursting to get out !!Aih...so deaded....

That's the last book i'm going to read. Not ever, just till my exams end. Aih, It isn't good to start a month of abstinence with haruki murakami. he has this shall we say talent of screwing with my mind. I don't know how to describe his books. It's as if he created all these stories just to give insights in human life. These stories don't make sense, but they do. His characters are act insanely, but they make sense. See what i mean?screwing with my mind. haha...i'm so looking forward to getting sputnik sweetheart. Reading murakami puts me in a philosophical state of mind which does tend to go on for weeks.

Well, I've FINALLY made up my mind.

18th April 2006
So I told sin cher to meet me at my house at 10.30a.m. But knowing sin cher time, I was kinda expecting her to arrive at like 11++. Mmmm…but it was no excuse to be lying in bed when she arrived on the dot. Yeap, I have decided to reconnect with my best school buddies. Since we had no idea where to go, we went to Mid Valley. Anyways, I had vested interest( needed to get stuff for the great bake day tomorrow) nyek.

No shopping this time though, cos yours truly is truly broke. (so lame :D) So we went to buy movie tickets for Lucky Number Slevin. Being with Shorty brings out the sarcastic side in mua. Haha.. she kept on asking me weird questions like why don’t I talk to KJ to which I told her people who break up don’t act as if they’re together :P. We went for some grocery shopping at Carrefour. It was so weird, cos girls like us don’t do stuff like that. But other than running the trolley over my feet ( I swear I SAW thread marks) everything went well. And those places still don’t have no muscovado sugar !!! So the whole tally : 2 blocks of butter, icing sugar, caster sugar, 3 bars of chocolate, cocoa powder, baking powder, condensed milk and all purpose flour = $39.83. I almost had a freakin heart attack. Baking is so not a cheap hobby.

To which we proceeded to get lost trying to find my parked car. It took us 15 minutes roaming around the blardy car park. Yeah, I swear, it has never happened to me before. (Big surprise) I thought Slevin would be some comedy ( yes I wanted to laugh). Big mistake. The first scene was some guy’s blood splattering on the car window followed by his dead head. That pretty much set the tone for the whole movie.

So after Mid Valley, we went back to her new house near Batu 9. Seriously, Batu 9 is a total kampong area. It’s this village nestled near KL. Every street is a one way thing. But her house .. oh man, it was so de peaceful All earthern tones ( something like Jess’ living room) lots of brown. Yeap, being a toilet fetish the first thing I checked out was the um..water closet. There is this toilet, the doors are made of glass. It’s totally transparent. :D Then Shorty tried making me kam kat. Since she’s the least domesticated person I know she poured al whole glass of CONCENTRATED lime juice for me. Yeah, so we know how that went. Haha, it was like ze old times again.

Apparently, she still chills with the ex-SSGians almost every week. Ah man, all these threads are fraying.

19th April 2006
So Jess and I decided to bake some stuff. Wakaka, I feel very de maternal now. Fortunately these urges only come once a year. But when it comes…oh shyt.. Since we couldn’t decide on Rich Chocolate Cake or Caramel Squares we did both. Haha, I would like to say I’m damn proud of Jess. Her first time and she displayed a natural aptitude for cooking. And no I don’t believe it’s cos she’s real logical and rational.
I am so going to kill June. Caramel is real easy to make my ass. Anyways, I have to review my baking motto : If it smells burnt then it’s cooked. But I feel so de jelak now after eating so much chocolate. Note to self : recipe books put twice as much sugar. I mean condensed milk and 25g of sugar!!?? I do feel like dying now. Baking drains one.

haha....I'm so amazingly happy !!!! MJ's coming back !!! *grins stupidly* I miss her so so muchie...wakakaka...and that felle won't even tell me when she's coming back, just a 'surprise'. but i like suprises...anyways, it's this week. I can't believe it since it's neither here nor there. Not summer hols or easter. But who cares !!! She's back and it's all that matters..:P hmmm...gotta get new clothes to celebrate haha

OOh... i went on my first visit to the dentist today. well, stupid mua tot that dentisit were like gp ppl. I could just walk in and get a spot on the chair. but nooo...I had to walk all around kajang town (wif my darling patient grandma..*loves you*) just to find a dentist who could accomodate me today. Yeap, so yours truly had to go down again at 5pm. haha...but i wuz worth it...I 've got shiny teeth..wakaka...and i shall refrain from staring at the mirror...

so today was my mom's b day. and being a total biatch i am, i didn't wish her at all. so now i feel like sheet. Why? Cos we're not on good terms.
haha, i'm so happy i got my internet back !!! Yeah, boredom was beginning to get on me. I was damn desperate, seriously, I even started reading thius reader's digest book about the most dramatic events which shaped world history. so far i've gone past the philistines to sea people to prussia(yeap i actually know where the hell tt place is now) to adolf hitler. wakaka, i do have a soft spot for history. nyek
so momo just told me there was going to be a reunion at victoria station.Why that blardy place? I really do NOT like it. haha...badd memories going there(plz refer to my nov 2005 entries) Anyways, i don't think i can go through with it. meeting all my old friends again, especially kar joon. *sigh* I still don't know how i'd act in front of him.haha, prob just ignore him. And shorty and tzuch, eiks, i'm so not mentally prepared.

14th April Friday
Yeap, I have survived and surviving 8 days without internet !!! Curse those telecom people !!! Well, went to school today to meet up with June and the rest. It was supposed to be a ‘study & chill’ group thing, but since we were late we skipped the study and went straight to chill. *smirk* Destination 1u (a-freakin-gain). Yes, being the shallow person I am, I needed to get that purple top. Oh yeah, and get my mom a present Which I didn’t cos Jess tot cups didn’t show appropriate affection.

We went to watch The Wild, another furry-aw-I’m-so-cute animal show. Ick, there’s more of those coming out. It was okay for a furry-aw-I’m so cute animal show. But it’s a generic Finding Nemo. Summary, dad loses kid. Dad goes find the kid. Dad ventures out of the safe haven aka coral reef aka zoo aka heard all that before.

So after that, we went to get my top and chill at Coffee Bean. Yeap, instead of the usual chit chat Jess, June and I just sat there for a while looking at magazines in those big comfy chairs that are ALWAYS occupied. Nyek, it wasn’t fun FUN BUT we had fun. Does that make sense? Haha, it just feels damn right enjoying each other’s company even without talking. I guess with good non irritant company being quiet CAN be fun( don’t quote me on that)

Today was so happening. Usually Jess and I have the worse car luck when we’re together ( no need to touch wood cos I really want this luck to change) . We got a fantastic parking outside college, plus a gr8 one a 1u too and Uncle Seng’s. Proud, I am. Nyek.

Speaking of that, today is also Leave-Your Stuff- With-Addie-Day. So far I’ve got June’s purse and Jia Min’s handphone. Now all I need are car keys to complete my collection. *evil laugh*

11th April Tuesday
Mood : Depressed
Why? Scratched the car AGAIN.
Add reasons : My dad just had it resprayed last week.

And I don’t know what they’ll say when I tell them my ceiling’s leaking. Eeeps…

Monday 10th April
Another girly girl day with Jess! Since I’m an early riser,(nah actually my mom woke me up at 8) and it was one of those days where I was feelin pretty. I really lurrve my brown DP top, I’m waiting till my next shopping trip to so I can get the purple and blue one. :D So I reached her house at nine something and that fella was still sleeping !! Bum.. Anyways, after all the hoo and haa and deciding what to wear (actually watching Jess stare at her cupboard for ages) we arrived at Mid just in time for….shopping !!!*smirk* We gravitated towards Vincci first since Jess wanted to get her *ahem* wedges. Apparently Mid Valley really sucks cos they don’t have our sizes(Jin was right 1u is so much better)

By the by, after all that elegance v funky wedges, dressing Jess up in feminine clothes( Yeah, she’s got pink and peach now people) and sitting in the car park eating ice cream and staring and weird women walk by with plastic red caps and golden bags and I mean shining shimmering golden bags(wut was she thinking?!!??) it was damn fun. It was like something that was there before disappeared. Or maybe it’s me changing. Haha, I really can’t put my finger on it, but it was aptly put by Jess tho. “When we cross the road now, you push me at the right time”.

My shopping tally for the day, Vincci shoes ( gotta expand my shoe shop horizons) and a gorgeous brown ad white(my favourite colours) bag from Mango. Nyek.

Unfortunately I had to go back early to take my picture. I was so insulted, that woman told me she was gonna touch up my face since I had a LOT of pimples. Oh my god. I was this close to slapping her. She made me wait 40 minutes after she told me it would take 5. Towards the end I figured she could sense my displeasure when I stormed out of that blardy shop.

That latest LL Cool J song with Jennifer Lopez Control Myself is deliciously interesting and It’s not cos of the whispering of that ridiculous zizizizizi thing they say at the end of the song. Don’t you feel high after listening to that song?

Saturday, 8 April 2006
So I was yelled up by my mom at six thirty in the morning to fetch my brother to some house. Great way to start the weekend I might add. Anyways, far a Saturday it was really productive. I went on a girls day out with yen li to one utama. Yeah, I got lost looking for her house (Sri Petaling is so not my territory).

One thing about yen li is, when she says shopping she actually means it. Shopping to me is usually movies and a nice lunch ( usually happens with Jess and gang) but hers is a six hour FLAT OUT expedition around 1 utama. Figures, it happens the day I wear heels for ‘shopping’. Anyways, it wasn’t a totally waste. I finally bought a proper pair of flip flops from vincci and I used my credit card for the first time too !! hehe, It was almost semi embarrassing cos the machine took hours to register my card. Yenz and I f thought it was going to be rejected. So sue me. My search for a brown top has ended!!! I’ve got to puurfect one from Dorothy Perkins and it only cost 33 bucks. Just random observations, the staff at Dorothy are either pregnant or gay transvestites. There’s a really interesting shop at 1 u. They call it the skin shop and it has banana body lotion !!! Totally fantastical.

Friday 8th April
End of exams !!! All started when I woke up at 5.30 in the morning to fetch Jess to school .Pretty fun car ride ( come to think of it she’s always real chatty when in the car. :D) The paper today was stats 7. A total disaster, the whole time I was sitting there that song rompe was STUCK in my head. Maybe that word had some significance and my brain was subconsciously telling me that. Yeah, so I checked to dictionary and the blardy word means ‘puzzle’. How freaky is that???

Anyways, we went to 1 utama today to celebrate saiful’s belated birthday. The toughest part was searching for the right present. Let’s just say I was ready to kill some ONE or some people. I despise/abhor indecisiveness and going to places in big groups. Yes, whenever that happens I usually sneak away till everything’s done. Even in school, going out in a big group (which I happily avoid); but when It does happen I’d come late so everything’s decide for me. Too many cooks spoil that broth eh? It happens all the time, if it’s not the movie people can’t decide on, it’s the food or what to do. The suckiest part is it’s by certain individuals who ALWAYS disagree and you just wanna tell them to SHUT UP.

Thursday 6th April
My holiday options :
a) Penang (with a PMS-ing mum chances are nil, but I live in hope)
b) immortelle prom(click 5!)
c) chilling at my buddy buddies house
For the un-informed studying is a given.*sniff* yeah, I have no life!! But that’s only for another 2 months and then ……

So anyways, it seems Jess’s got a chance of becoming a wesleyian since Kylie got another scholarship (I admit I’m a teeny weeny bit jealous, but who wouldn’t be). Part of me like totally wants her to go for it but the other part wants her to go to the uk with mua. :D Yeah so I admit I am selfish, but I just can’t take all my best buddies going to the US, and I’ll be like across the Atlantic. But as they say, you got to let those baby birds spread their wings..*sighs*

I went the play my first pool game in like months with the serong girl today. Surprisingly there was no one at club 7. Either this year’s dragon babies are total nerds or I don’t know what else. Huhu…and I won…twice.. Granted the first time she hit the black ball in, but still !!:P

Speaking of prom, apparently our CAL prom’s theme this year is “boy Meets Girl” ummm….so do they expect us to wear some sorta little kids outfit ? like I can totally imagine my date(if I have one lar) to bo in some sailor boy outfit while I’ve got flowers in my hair with ribbons. I cannot take it …

yeah, so today i had this incredible urge to start singing that song, i don't know what it's called, or which movie it was from and the only line i know is "i feel pretty!!!"when you sing "pretty", your voice climbs an octave or two.I imagine this phantom song was sung in some disney movie by some fluffy chracter(a skunk ?) prancing around some lane in a forest with a couple of rainbows and a deer .
so feeling pretty, i wore my white wedges with this dark green skirt(which i recently fell in love with it again) and some new white top my mom bought. does wonders for self esteem.
anyways, my grandparents left for kluang today !!! the house feels so empty without them. *sniff* i miss my grandma's hugs and keropoks. well, they're coming back next week!!!
gosh i didn't do any exercise today. To quote jin "my whole body aching". I think it running and the skipping i did these past week. oh my god, skipping is so much worse than running. i see those little girls on tv do it and i'm like wtf. i can't take it cos after like 15 minutes my bones start you ache *creak* maybe i 'm over zealous, but i could barely walk !! note to self : stick to joggin from now on

At times like this, my usual comment is ...'yeah, you know liddat lar..." for those of you that don't know me, that's when i'm freakin speechless !!!
no i don't have a sob story about how it was freakin difficult but kiddies, it's a fable(story with morals)
lesson 1) always read the instuctions on the examination paper. when it wants you to answer three questions DO three questions. don't just sit there like some fewl wondering why everyone's furiously writing after you've done two.
lesson 2) put everthing into perspective.tell yourself" k k, so it's just 25 marks no biggie. haha...it's just trails. "
lesson 3) just stick to two lessons...
How i feel right now:
Yesterday I broke your heart in two
Today I wanna waste my life with you
but its over, over
I dont wanna touch anybody else
But kissin you's a drug bad for my health
and its over, over, so over
Its killin me!
Gently, silently, Im dyin inside
Gently, silently, Im dyin inside
I hear it in your voice on the telephone
Youre so good at playin stable when you'r all alone
and its over, over, so over
courtesy of sugar cult :D

after four month hiatus, i feel refreshed, regenerated !! yeah well shucks for me.
so anyways, exams are tomorrow and i guess this is just a defence reflex from studying. Do other productive stuff and consciously avoid books which start with law and contract. :P
so my brother just showed me some letter on yafro which is incredibly weird. i mean really weird. this friend of his got her bf to write a letter to denounce his friendship with some other girl and she scenned it on yafro. em...speechless.....
so about my life these past months :
1) am single again *smirks*
2) more sane (thanks to number 1)
3) happier? (debatable)

haha...so technically it's same old same old.

i saw this documentary on discovery channel about adolf hitler and eva braun's realationship.The way she was willing to die with him made it seem like they were some sort of star crossed couple (deeply in love, the whole nine yards) .But i i noticed that all her relatives, close aquantices avaoided the word love. The furthest they went was deep liking? apparently, hitler closeted her about the evils he did. It's like even in evil he wanted someone pure, who whouldn't jugde him for what he did(bad hitler) just for himself. For the record, i'm not a pro-nazi. :D so if i do commit suicide over some guy i'm sure it'll be more than obligation...